crash..boom..bang

Last week was kind of a topsy-turvy week for me. Not so much about what happen in my life, but the reflections that I gathered whilst going thru life.

I made a blunder at work, which could have been avoided if I had been careful. But it happened, and my boss said things happen and explained why he was upset over my blunder.

I watched the movie ‘Crash’. Read several reviews about it and finally managed to catch the movie. I think the movie further re-emphasised the fact that things happen. I didn’t feel very good after watching the show, not because the movie was bad. The movie was excellent!

The show depicted the lives of many different individuals, who are seemingly unrelated, but were connected in one way or another in the end. To me, the movie served as a bleak reminder that our actions, choices we made do have consequences. And it affects how people perceive us, react to us and develop their own form of understanding of us, especially in a heterogeneous world, where racial and cultural differences are amplified.

I think the movie further adds to the point that sometimes, ‘shit’ happens to even the ‘good’ people.

On national day, instead of watching the parade, I spent my time watching this vcd that Ying gave me. It’s the award winning Malaysian movie called ‘Sepet’. Its about love between a Malay girl and a Chinese boy. I think it’s a sad a movie. Unlike other cross-cultural relationships, this couple faced no objection from their parents with regards to their love.

I think a lot of time, one would say that differences between them are superficial. I would be the first to admit, that a relationship that spans across different cultures is not superficial. How could anyone consider cultural and religious differences that have been developed over centuries be deemed superficial?

But in spite of that, at the end of the day, the differences don’t matter. I think it makes it more exciting.

Why do I think that ‘Sepet’ is a sad movie? Cause again, this movie showed me that sometimes things happen and lives get affected by it. Will not spoil the ending for would-be viewers of the show.

I find it difficult to utter the words or reflections that I gathered from these series of events. It may even seem incoherent to some. So I will not even attempt to try, cause I might oversimplify it and loses its nuances altogether. But I will share certain excerpts from the movies or thoughts that have been constantly replaying in mind over the past few days:

- A line in the movie ‘Sepet’– “It doesn’t matter, who you like and why you like the person. If you like the person because of his race, or skin colour than be it. It is when you hate a person, that is when it is not right”.

- At the end of the movie ‘Sepet’, this quotation appeared – “it is as near to you as your life, but you can never wholly own it” by Robindranath Tagore.

- I am more convinced that ‘bigotry begets bigotry’

- in life, things happen. Sometimes for the good and sometimes for the bad. I don’t always know why things happen. I only know that there is always a higher reason for things that happen which we may or may not always understand or see.

for the 'slightly' younger crowd out there, crash!boom!bang! was one of my fave songs by one of my fave singers of all time - Roxette. they are Swedish by the way
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Crash! Boom! Bang!

my papa told me to stay out of trouble
"when you've found your man make sure he's for real"
i've learned that nothing really lasts forever
i sleep with the scars i wear that won't heal
they won't heal

cos every time i seem to fall in love
crash! boom! bang!
i find the heart but then i hit the wall
crash! boom! bang!
that's the call that's the game and the pain stays the same

i'm walking down this empty road to nowhere
i pass by the houses and blocks i once knew
my mama told me not to mess with sorrow
but i always did and lord i still do
i'm still breaking the rules
i kick it up
i kick it down

cos every time i seem to fall in love
crash! boom! bang!
i find the heart but then i hit the wall
crash! boom! bang!
that's my real middle-name
it has always been the same
that's the call that's the game and the pain stays the same

i still feel the heat
slowly fallin' from the sky
and the taste of the kissing
shattered by rain
comin' tumblin' from behind
and the wild holy war
i kick it up
i kick it down

and every time i seem to fall in love
crash! boom! bang!
i find the roses dying on the floor
crash! boom! bang!
that's the call that's the game and the pain stays the same
that's my real middle-name
it has always been the same
oh yea oh yea oh yea uh-huh
been the same been the same
it has always been the same